Lately I have been struggling with just that. I am a people pleaser, I value what people think of me, I want to be liked and accepted, even praised. I used to think that I didn't care what others thought of me, but that was just my inner rebel talking. If I were honest with myself, that is the attitude I wish I had. I wish I didn't care, I wish I were always true to myself, comfortable with being me, but I hold myself back, and I only have myself to blame. I am struggling with knowing who I am and seeing the value in it, even when others don't or even when they do, but I just don't see it myself. I thought I had my life figured out, that I knew who I was and my purpose in this world, but things change as they should and I feel insecure and a little lost. So naturally I long for my friends and family at home, who know me best, convinced that they can comfort me. But deep down I know the reality is that I have to discover and find my value, for my self and by my self....and a little help from God, ok a lot of help!
I found this quote a while back and I try to draw inspiration from it, "Our motive is not to prove our self-worth, but to live up to our possibilities." Unknown
By living up to all of the possibilities in my life that God has for me, I belive I will know my value because I am choosing to live the life Christ has for me, not the one of my choosing. And I must be holding myself back or I wouldn't feel the need to be more than I already am. I need to GROW! This is the beginning of a new journey for me and I have no idea where it will lead, I am a little scared and a little excited!
But on a lighter note,
I am going to share some of my favorite instagrams!
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| We are goofy... |
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| this is how we do it! |
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| DJ enjoying his turkey dinner. |
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| He started to fall asleep as I was holding him. |
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| Such a good looking pup! |
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| Coffee dates with friends are one of my favorite things! |
